im so sorry R.I.P little one. i was crying when reading that. it was the lick bit that got me going. now my pillows all wet lol. its not easy at all pts a pet. i remember the first time i had to do it. i was crying so much i couldnt talk. i still get upset. she was my little angel, my rat, and since then two others have passed. it doesnt get any easier, but i feel it has made me stronger. my little ratties will be waiting also to greet your little boy. hope you are ok. look back and laugh @ his antics.